Mummy has always been the love-you-behind-the-scenes person, her love is shown through the sacrifices she makes, the meals she'd cook, the comfort in my living. She's the sort who'd say "走开啦，在我旁边很麻烦” when she's afraid the splattering of the oil when she's cooking would get on me. Her concern and love's often hidden under the words she chooses to use. She's never said "I love you" to me in all my life, and over time it's gotten harder to communicate, because I became a lot like her and I didn't know how to express my love for her. I too, have never said "I love you mummy" to her in all my life. 

So a simple chat like today's didn't come easy for the two of us, and it's something I've prayed for, for many years. We talked what mothers and daughters usually talked about, she told me about the times she was young, her life with daddy, when she grows old, and she asked me about my school, my China trip and my boyfriend. And those who know me well enough will know how precious this time of casually-talking-about-life would mean to me (and probably to her too). 

Heard a song on Kpop star recently, and the lyrics go "Mom, there was a time you were beautiful and young. You gave up everything for me. You are the strongest person that I know." 

It's true. 

Mummy, you're the strongest person that I know. I told you just now when you told me about daddy leaving us so early, that the reason it was daddy who left, is because God knew you'd do a better job at raising the 3 of us. You're determined, strong and resilient. You gave up everything, and lived not as yourself, but as a mother to us. I love you mummy, very very much. And it is my prayer that one day I'd be able to say that to you and hear you say you love me too (': 

Mummy has always been the love-you-behind-the-scenes person, her love is shown through the sacrifices she makes, the meals she'd cook, the comfort in my living. She's the sort who'd say "走开啦，在我旁边很麻烦” when she's afraid the splattering of the oil when she's cooking would get on me. Her concern and love's often hidden under the words she chooses to use. She's never said "I love you" to me in all my life, and over time it's gotten harder to communicate, because I became a lot like her and I didn't know how to express my love for her. I too, have never said "I love you mummy" to her in all my life. 

So a simple chat like today's didn't come easy for the two of us, and it's something I've prayed for, for many years. We talked what mothers and daughters usually talked about, she told me about the times she was young, her life with daddy, when she grows old, and she asked me about my school, my China trip and my boyfriend. And those who know me well enough will know how precious this time of casually-talking-about-life would mean to me (and probably to her too). 

Heard a song on Kpop star recently, and the lyrics go "Mom, there was a time you were beautiful and young. You gave up everything for me. You are the strongest person that I know." 

It's true. 

Mummy, you're the strongest person that I know. I told you just now when you told me about daddy leaving us so early, that the reason it was daddy who left, is because God knew you'd do a better job at raising the 3 of us. You're determined, strong and resilient. You gave up everything, and lived not as yourself, but as a mother to us. I love you mummy, very very much. And it is my prayer that one day I'd be able to say that to you and hear you say you love me too (':