Too many thoughts in my head. 

Today, I sit to think about the year that just passed, and the year I'll be facing. I know I'm #32dayslate for a new year reflection kind of post, but it only dawned on me in the past week, the many things I have to accomplish, do, start and think about in this new year. 

Leaving my 4 years job, though a sigh of relief more than anything else, brings me a lot of anxiety about income and the future. My one month mission trip to China seems nearer than I'd expected it to be, and there's so many things to prepare for, so many things to plan for, and at this moment, all of it does seem a little daunting to me. School too, along with the rest of my year or I may say life is uncertain ground, and ambiguity is not my favorite 'state' to be in. 

So 2015 for me, is starting off with much fear, much worry. With all of that, I also have personal goals, in my life, in my relationships that I wish to see come to past in 2015. 

I know I sound a little depressed by the time you read till this part of my post, maybe I really am, but I believe in times of uncertainty and ambiguity, the only one I can turn to and trust in is the Father who knows what's best for me. So, today, for this year, everything that will happen, I only pray that I may trust despite circumstances, have joy in all I do, and be used by God at wherever he places me. 只愿一生被你用

Too many thoughts in my head. 

Today, I sit to think about the year that just passed, and the year I'll be facing. I know I'm #32dayslate for a new year reflection kind of post, but it only dawned on me in the past week, the many things I have to accomplish, do, start and think about in this new year. 

Leaving my 4 years job, though a sigh of relief more than anything else, brings me a lot of anxiety about income and the future. My one month mission trip to China seems nearer than I'd expected it to be, and there's so many things to prepare for, so many things to plan for, and at this moment, all of it does seem a little daunting to me. School too, along with the rest of my year or I may say life is uncertain ground, and ambiguity is not my favorite 'state' to be in. 

So 2015 for me, is starting off with much fear, much worry. With all of that, I also have personal goals, in my life, in my relationships that I wish to see come to past in 2015. 

I know I sound a little depressed by the time you read till this part of my post, maybe I really am, but I believe in times of uncertainty and ambiguity, the only one I can turn to and trust in is the Father who knows what's best for me. So, today, for this year, everything that will happen, I only pray that I may trust despite circumstances, have joy in all I do, and be used by God at wherever he places me. 只愿一生被你用